I typed an essay to this bc I really feel I can relate here and my heart goes out to you.i dont wanna spam your comments though. Feel free to send me a message at any time if you’d like someone to talk to.

This year was the year I realized I’d developed really bad pmdd over the last years. Also coincides with me realizing I'd been in denial of the extent that endo has affected me/my body. And blaming myself for so much rather than just accepting it. .

After I got very sick w covid from Feb 2020-May 2020-I went from working part time, being a homemaker-having a more defined identity-to laying in bed in constant pain and unable to do much else.

How much my Endo/ptsd/pmdd affects me and the secondary issues that arose in our relationship were something me and my husband have really struggled with over the last 3 years. This year we started moving forward again. It’s just our experience-but I think that other ppl in similar situations probably come across so many of the same issues we did. I personally know 3 couples with chronic health/mental health issues
Who struggled with the same feelings/issues we did/do and I’m more than happy to share what’s been working and what we learned and what I wish we/I learned earlier.

<3 No pressure! Just if you would like someone to talk to.

I believe loosing relationships and being alone is part of the struggles that many people with Endo faces. It's not easy for other people to understand what they cannot see. They could be the most wonderful and loving people in the world, but at the end of the day you're the only person that is going to really understand and advocate for yourself. Nevertheless, like Victoria8 said, I've also met wonderful couples that get through this together, it all depends on faith or God if you do believe in them. Sending you lots of hugs.
If you ever want someone to talk a little bit more about those feelings feel free to reach out at my ig @nicoleibarrap, I tend to answer there more frequently.
Kindly,
Nicole💛

My ex was super supportive and by my side through the ablation surgery. However, after almost two years the moods started to get to him and he became a little more numb to them. I was honest and tried to shield him from them so it wouldn't lead to issues but he didn't like that either. I had other health issues as well and once I started on the medicine for endo the moods got more up and down. I fought to appear normal no matter how I felt most days but that eventually gets exhausting. He is completely healthy and optimistic. I had been hit by a semi and officially diagnosed with endo within a 3 year span. Pain was a close friend and he didn't always understand why I constantly struggled. It made it harder to talk about things in general and eventually we drifted apart after 4 years of dating. Butttt I'm a believer things happening for a reason. I've recently met several women with endo who have wonderful marriages. It just takes finding the one who will communicate and stick it out no matter what. Find what works best for you both and go with it. I wish you both the best!

Thank you so much! I’m coming to the realisation that it’s highly likely I have PMDD. I’m going to speak with my doctor about what can be done during those weeks because it’s not possible to continue on the way I am. I really appreciate your offer and will be taking you up on it 😊💜

Thank you ladies so much! It means the world to me to have a safe space to vent and to receive advice, support and guidance.
Thank-you for the kind offer Nicolelbarra but I do not have any social media apart from this site.
Victoria8, I’m so sorry to hear. That is my fear at the moment as well. My fiance is amazing but long term I can understand the struggle of being on the other side looking in.
NicholeReed, some really good points. Thank you.

I truly believe that god brought my fiance and I together when we needed each other most so I need to have faith he will get us through 💜